New Years Eve

Last day of this decade.
Last day of 2009.
Last hour and a bit of 2009.

A lot has happened this year, good and bad, maybe more good than bad... so I can't say that this year has been crap. Even so, I'm looking forward to 2010. Everyone seems to be wanting that new start. Myself included. Although, I don't want everything to be new. Some things, I want to stay how they were.

New years resolutions?
1) STUDY HARDER
2) Is a secret. I don't want to disclose =P

Lets just keep it at that.

near the end of 2009

Tomorrow's the last day for 2009, and well I just want to get started about all the things bothering me right now, so I can finally get on with life in the new year.

Okay, this issue is basically filled with misunderstandings, misinterpretations and misjudgements. I don't want to name names. And since I hardly tell people my side of the story, they all probably think I'm a complete b&^%$. Why am I not bothered to say my side? It'll make me seem like I'm trying to force them onto "my side". That's childish right? What's the point of trying to make friends choose between friends? I don't want people to hate that person because of our "fall out" and in return, I don't want to be hated for the same reason. It's not a nice feeling hating someone because you're on a certain "side". It just makes you seem like you don't have your own thoughts.

I'm sick of having to deal with this. And sick of that person thinking that they are the innocent one. That it's all my fault. That I'm the one to blame. That I've done this and that. And the bit that hurts the most, saying bad stuff about me that were built on those misunderstandings and misinterpretations. Everything has been misunderstood because of the assumptions since person had made. I'm sick of it all. But what can I do? That person made it very clear their thoughts on their rampage to me. Unsure on how to respond. Now, it's too late. And I no longer care.

/End of story

"You aren’t going to be her first, her last, or her only… she’s loved before; she will love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you’re not either. If she can make you laugh and if she admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. She’s not going to be thinking about you every moment of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows YOU can break —- her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad and miss her when shes not there. Because perfect girls don’t exist, but there’s always one girl that is perfect for you."

What if...

What if....

These two words, I hate the most. It creates uncertaintity, confusion... but I guess at the same time, it gives hope and possibilities.

Sometimes I wonder..

What if we had met later? Would it still be the same?
What if we had never met? Would you be okay?
What if we had met a different way? Would you feel differently about me?
What if I wanted to know what you're thinking? Would you tell me?
What if I had said what's on my mind? Would you understand?
What if I kept those thoughts to myself? Would to see through it?
What if there were no obstacles? Would you give it your all?
What if I said I wanted to be your sunshine during the day? Would you tell me I already am?
What if I said I wanted to be your moon during the night? Would you tell me the same?
What if I told you, my heart is still with you? Would you tell me you'll look after it?
What if I told you I missed you? Would you say the same?
What if I said I can't live without you? Would you know the feeling?
What if... what if... I told you

you are all I need.
Would you believe me?

MIA yet again

Okay, now for the proper blog for today. As you all know, been MIAing for weeks now.

Today finally got the chance to continue watching "You're Beautiful", the korean drama I had started a while back. Currently in love with it. Yet another korean drama that made it to my top favourites.

Like all dramas a love triangle (or square) is involved. I always feel bad for the nice guy who ends up being rejected by the female lead, in this case, Shin Woo. Ah and Shin Woo is the best looking one too. Sigh.

So that's all I've been doing besides from working. My project 365? Haven't had the time to upload photos, so its like weeks behind. Must catch up when I can. Double sigh. And been neglecting my facebook as well.

Guess you can say I feel anti-social at the moment. Just been texting people here and there. That's bascially all the communication I've been getting. I've even abandoned MSN. So when I said MIA, I really meant MIA. Ah, hoping to catch up with people after new years at this rate.

Can't believe 2010 is approaching that fast! 2009, where did it go? Only a few days of it remaining!! Can't remember most of it to be honest. So fast, and I'm 1/4 finished with my uni degree. Time flies. Kind of OVERwhelmed with all this? This transition into "adult" life... slowly I'll get used to it.

Ah, what else? My 2010 semester 1 timetable for uni? I haven't posted that right?

It's 3 days this time. Still good I guess. Like last time, It won't be enlargeable since I don't want to be stalked! So at uni on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. It was possible for me to make a 2 day timetable this time around as well, but a 9AM start or a 7PM finish was not good enough for me to go all out in two days. 9AM starts are a killer... they drain all energy you have... 6:30 wake ups... no thank you. 7PM finish, I'll be travelling by myself at such a late time on public transport... so many weirdoes in Sydney! So 3 day timetable it is. Wondering what courses I ended up choosing? LEGT (I am so going to regret this next year.. but still, I want to be able to do CPA or CA), ACCT (decided to major in accounting), FINS (yes, a finance major as well) and ECON (needed to do something for the economics part of my degree... still haven't fully decided the major though... maybe financial economics?).

That's all for now. Just want to say, I'll try my best to blog more. I hate the fact that there is a lack of blogs here. So, i'll do my best :)

2) Missing someone gets easier every day, because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.

I Miss You.
Still.

Some men feel the need to love a thousand different women, but a real man knows how to love one woman a thousand different ways.

Fearless

When it comes to relationships, people are always so scared of the what-if’s that they forget what is. They spend so much time thinking, “What if I get hurt?” and “What if it doesn’t work out?” that they stop thinking about things that are already real. They forget the feeling they get when the person they love walks into the room and the excitement that rushes through them when the phone rings cause it might be the person they are hoping to hear from. Never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on love… because what if this is the person you’re destined to spend the rest of your life with? You’ve got to man up and know all the hard work is worth it.

Merry Christmas All

Christmas ws actually yesterday, but never really got the chance to wish everyone a happy christmas online. I just had sent sms to those special selected few. So to everyone else, hope you had a great day yesterday.

Things on my side have been pretty hectic! By hectic I'm mainly referring to busy. Been working like non-stop a little over two weeks before Christmas. So that basically meant that I've no time to go out with friends or anything. Wake up at 7:40am latest, and sleep by 11pm (sometimes I slept a bit later because of someone). Working hours on average is 9am-6pm, but on days before christmas, the times extended longer. Yes, work is tiring, but then the feeling you get of earning your own money is pretty good too.

Where am I working? A photo-developing shop. Mainly selling frames and very nice gifts for people. And also developing photos. I've learnt so many things in the past two weeks. And the boss is really nice as well. So work, isn't really like work at all. But still, I'm glad I'm now free. I missed a lot of things. And because of that job, I wasn't able to do some stuff I had wanted to.

Christmas Eve was my last day working, then as soon as we finish, went off to relative's house to meet up with aunty's american friends. Food everywhere! The chicken kebab was good. So was the salad. And chocolate truffles. And for the first time in my life, tried FRIED ICE CREAM. So yum! But it felt double fattening :(

Christmas day went out to eat with those american friends at canley heights. At that expensive viet restaurant. The bill came up to $200, and I hardly ate anything. Just wrapped about 6 tiny tiny rolls myself and thats it :( After, went home for a bit, then cemetery to visit dad and grandma, then off to visit someone else's house. Then back to the house the americans were staying at, then off again to another person's house. Then finally, dinner at canley again at around 8-9pm. But this time had chinese, so food was good.

Boxing day (today) off to city with those american friends. Went to sight see at Circular Quay then went back down to the shopping areas we usually go to. Didnt buy anything really. Just got my 2010 Blue Bear calender from morning glory. Sigh. Nothing to buy! The clothes they are selling are not my style. Wish I can go Hong Kong.........

Letter for Santa

Dear Santa,
Remember the Christmas Wish List I published on this blog? I've decided I don't want any of that. There is just one thing. One thing I want more than anything in this world.

One Wish.

Make it happen. Please?

Love,
18-year-old-who-still-believe-in-miracles

Art of Love

I’m saying sorry in advance cos this won’t always go to plan
Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted
It's in our nature to forget what matters
How when the going is getting tough
And we’re all about giving up
Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I’m still trying to learn the art of love

If I forget to get the door
Remind you that you’re beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you it’s not my intention
Cause we’re gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back
And baby I got yours

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love

Sometimes I’m gonna miss
I’m still learning how to give
I’m not giving up
I’m still learning how to love
Learning how to love…
Learning how to love

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love
(The art of love)

Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
Still trying to learn the art of love
Still learning, I'm still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
I'm gonna get it sometimes, cause I'm still learning
Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
The art art of love

**
Life story right there. Enough said.

Chef in the making?

Today had breakfast at 12PM. Sleeping patterns are turning all whacked.

Simultaneously was eating breakfast and prepping for sushi making. Yes, after many years, decided to make sushi again :D

Day 4 of Project 365: Homemade Sushi

It turned out pretty good yeah? So proud of myself :D

That was basically what I had wanted to update you guys on. Until next time...

Hello Summer!

I have yet again stayed away from this blog for a bit. Been getting into cooking, actually, it's more like baking.

Coffee and walnut cupcake


Apple and cinnamon danish pastries

I've started a PROJECT 365. What's that? I'll be uploading a photo everyday for 365 days. The photos will represent some aspect of that day, whether it be interesting or not. If you want to follow my project 365, locate the album on my facebook. Sorry I won't be linking my facebook for privacy reasons, but do not worry as for the more interesting days, do expect to see the photos posted here as well. So you are not missing out :)

Okay, so you've all established that I've been baking all day. Today, actually baked for 6 hours! Mainly due to waiting for the dough to set. Sigh. Very time consumming!

It takes no brainaic to realise it's the 1st of December for 2009, and therefore, the first day of summer. Should I be getting nervous now? With the extremes of heat and such?