ill be there...

Ever have one of those moments where you realise you have taken someone for granted...and now there gone?
things are different now, but most of all i miss having you as my best friend! someone who i can talk to, to have dnms with or just talk bout the pointless things in life (even the little details LOL)...
someone that i can ring and just talk to for hours! the one who knows you so well that they know what your feeling by just listening to your tone or by your facial expressions..
I use to be able to tell you anything and everything...where have those days gone now?
You were more than just a friend, you are like family to me...and when i really think about it your like the older brother which i never had.
The one that i can laugh with or cry to...the one that looked out for me and i did the same..
i really did look up to you! asking for advice.. and listening to your opinions on things.. i miss those times! and now i wonder would this ever happen again?
when i told you.."i cant talk to you like i use to"..i was actually hurting inside,
because truth is i really wanted to! and deep down inside, i knew i could...but couldn't admit it to you, coz you i knew you couldn't...so it did hurt when i heard u say it.. the memory just keeps replaying in my head over and over, making me realise how far we have grown apart...
Remember those days, when we use to talk, laugh and smile? i do! eating adventures, to do list that we never finished...and those memories will last forever in me..
You were the first person thats not blood related to ever know me so well, and i opened up too.. i miss those days, and now i feel like old habits are coming back and keeping everything inside again..i hate it!
How did things ever end up like the way they did? I always knew that some things cant last forever..but i always thought the close friendship bond will always be there. 'Ill be forever by your side' was the reason i wrote that..if not as one 'thing', but always as your best friend!
so yeah i really do miss talking to you normally, and just feel carefree... i miss having you as my best friend!
in the end..if there is one last message i want to give you is...its not too late, at least not now, and i'll be here to listen or talk to if u ever need anything at all! :)